The world is officially against me, no i am not some emo chick who is angry, i am just tired of everything going wrong at the same time...
why does one procrastinate?
exactly, you don't know?? neither do i!!
i have had this essay since may and i leave it until the last day! why? because i am not organised and unhappy
and that is fine, life will pick up sometime soon, i just need this semester to be over, i need the winter solstice and i need a new start, i need to take care of myself, and as i write this i know i have needed this for a long time. i need to express my thoughts. instead of screaming on the inside, too polite to share the truth for the fear or being chastised as a child.
i am afraid to grow up. and while i have flown the nest i am still trying to fly away from myself.

soon. soon....